It has been a long time since I have posted anything to my blog. I have been meaning to get back to writing, and I have a million and one excuses for why I took a break. But, as one of my favorite celebrities, Cesar Millan (aka the Dog Whisperer), says, “Don’t try, just do.” I figured the eve of my 50th birthday was as good a time as any to try and get back into the blogosphere. Yes, you heard me right. It’s the night before my 50th birthday.
I was having a conversation with a student today. Somehow she heard my birthday was tomorrow. She asked me if I was excited, and of course I told her I was. However, I am not excited about birthdays in the same way I was in my teens. I remember looking forward to the day when I would be another year older. I would even count the days until my birthday would arrive. I realize as I get older, I don’t anticipate as much. Instead, I look back at the year and review. And when I hit a milestone birthday, like 50, I tend to look back and review the whole decade. Am I the only one who does this? God, I hope not.
As I reflect back on my 40s, I realize that I have accomplished and achieved many of the goals I set for myself personally and professionally. The 40s were awesome. I can honestly say I am comfortable in my own skin. I am not as concerned about what other people think of me. My confidence level has increased compared to my 20s or even 30s. These days I am all about enjoying myself and trying not to worry so much. Be happy and celebrate life. These are the things I would tell my younger self if my present self wrote a letter.
In an effort to celebrate the end of my 40s, my friend (and neighbor), Nicole, gave me the idea that I should do something special for myself every month on the 19th. She told me this 6 months before my 50th birthday. So, every month, I gave myself a treat. Here is a collage of the things I did for myself to celebrate me. I documented it on Instagram.
glass of Pinot Noir, a ride on a San Francisco trolley car, movies with friends, nonfat dairy-free yogurt, a swim in Mission Bay with Nicole, chocolate mousse cake from Cheesecake Factory
All of this leading up to tomorrow. I know now that reaching 50, and everyday beyond that, is a gift. I will not take anything for granted. I will appreciate all the little things and be thankful for all the big things that happen in my life. I will not forget to say, “I love you” to the people that matter most to me. I will remember to be kind to myself. If I can do all these things, my 50s will be spectacular!
Happy Birthday to me!! 🙂